citrinitas_668

[Private to self // hackable]

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you why did you do this to us

I wake up in that manor every night. The ghosts cannot be hurt so all there is to do is run. But run to where? What is the purpose of this dream? I followed ...Father... thinking I could... thinking I... I don't know, why I followed him in the first place. There is nothing to say anymore, nothing matters here. I already failed my one duty, what more can I do? Apologize? If apologies solved anything, those petty wars humans tend to fight would be nonexistent. No, I cannot go back, nor can I...

Why. Why was I chosen to eliminate the Red Dragon when I would only fail? Did Father expect it to happen? Or is he disappointed in me? I... wish I knew. That would be the only reason to meet him--to find clarity. But even so, how can a dream like this bring me any clarity? Who tells me this person I saw is indeed Dmitri Yuriev and not a mere illusion? ... I would simply not go into that mansion anymore, but I seem to wake up inside every time. ... What is the goal inside that house? If you can't defeat the ghosts and can't find a way out. ... What are we supposed to do?

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I would've preferred orange or yellow. Red is such a hideous color.

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