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Citrine ❬#668❭ ([personal profile] citrinitas_668) wrote2008-10-06 09:24 am

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A shift in power, and yet no changes. Surprising? I think not.

Work has been ridiculously pointless these days. I ask you, Purgatorium, what good are all these crime-fighting organizations when we don't seem to succeed at all and there is no crime to fight?

In a place as hopeless as this hell, what is there really left to do? Wouldn't every human being strive for more comfort and safety? Then why do at least 70% of this place live on the lower level, where it isn't safe and housing is nearly worthless? Is it the will for punishment? Are you punishing yourself by staying here and doing nothing?

If there is any truth to the theories about the evolution of man, where are the people who try to work for a better tomorrow? Those who fight against the odds, just so they will achieve what they yearn for?

Everyone in this place has given up hope when it is supposedly human nature to strive, strive and strive. A hand smacking you down should only make you get up once again. Isn't that how man has managed to come this far in this universe? Trying to build. Trying to invent. Regardless of all higher powers that try to force you down... is it fear? Fear of God, that stops everyone from even trying?

I once knew a man who conquered that fear... who wasn't afraid to work towards his goal. Was he really the only one in this universe to have that courage?


Or perhaps, all of this is a farce. Maybe none of you are really alive here but merely images this hell has produced for me. My own personal hell. It does sound sort of lovely, doesn't it?

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:37 pm (UTC)(link)
That's what's so frustrating about this place... You can lead all you want, but no one will follow. They might agree with your ideas, but when it comes actually doing something, everyone shrinks back or pretends to be "busy" with something else. Busy? In this place? Hmph.

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
yeah, but you're the only one complaining about this.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't you think it would at least stir things up? Even if you don't succeed and end up being smitten by the god--at least you tried. At least you gave your existence, however short, a meaning by living for something.

Fear is such a petty thing.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
If you're so curious, I'm currently explaining my thoughts to someone you are very familiar with, if I remember correctly.

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
umm... Be careful what you say. I got in trouble for suggesting the same thing but in a joking manner.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Then at least something would happen, wouldn't it? I'm not afraid of consequences.

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I saw. Maybe instead of just talking and looking like a hypocrite you could be the one leading and acting

[identity profile] embracingly.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It's infinitely easier to talk. I can't say the ones who do take whatever action is around couldn't improve either.

There's plenty of room to grow, to put it optimistically.

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[identity profile] ttlymostspecial.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I like the way you think.

Risks are worth taking, if you think they'll pay off.

At this point in time, I don't, but I'd be interested in seeing how it plays out.

[identity profile] covert-chord.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

I've been wanting something to change, and something will, but it certainly won't be because of you.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you think I'm going to be doing in the near future? I am not allowed to collect my thoughts before I storm into the situation?

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
you keep saying that but don't actually do anything. How are we supposed to take you seriously?

[identity profile] ttlymostspecial.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Here's hoping this one doesn't end with threats on my life.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
...Whatever. If no one follows, I will do this by myself. May the gods smite me for being a heretic, I'd rather disappear from this place entirely than sit around like the rest.

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[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Very well. I'm rather sick of waiting for a change, so whatever the consequences for doing something rash will be, I'll bear them.

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
you are but why gather what everyone else thinks if you're already decided? You've ruined any element of surprise.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:45 pm (UTC)(link)
All right, I'm sorry, I'll stop responding now and start planning, is that all right for you? I thought you might want to finish this conversation, but if you're so impatient...

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
well she isn't your girlfriend so you should be just fine.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, don't worry, I'm not hoping to be a special part of your life. Whatever the reason for your action is, doesn't really concern me so long as you actually do something.

[identity profile] ex-regenera246.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I want a leader who acts like a leader and not someone else that whines about the situation.

[identity profile] ttlymostspecial.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I might get punished just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

[identity profile] embracingly.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you mind if I joined you in the smiting?

[identity profile] shooting-blanc.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:50 pm (UTC)(link)
There are- but 'taking care of' the beings who control this place is another matter all together. I haven't tested their boundaries myself- but all connotations of religion and everything else aside- we seem to be dealing with beings that are omniscient and omnipotent within this world.

[[Private//Unhackable and hoping this includes the gods]]
But If there is a chink in their armor- I'm far from being willing to exploit it. I don't plan on going out and actively testing them to find it though. Always preferred a more cautious approach.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Firstly, I am not trying to be a leader.

Secondly, I am not trying to be a leader you want.

Thirdly, as most people seem to use the networks to whine, do let me keep my right to whine as well, before I go and take action.

[identity profile] citrinitas-668.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:52 pm (UTC)(link)
How romantic. You would die with me?

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